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this stupid dream - heartstop beach
home colours
we’re all dressed up in our home colours, yeah
i just wanna, i just wanna be halfway there
i’d keep it alive now,
but you wouldn’t, no
growing up in our home colours, yeah
i just wanna, i just wanna be only halfway there
i’d keep it alive now,
but you wouldn’t, no
tell me if it’s over, tell me now,
tell me if i can’t go back to how
i’d love you til you’d take me out
adding to yr list of ways to die
i’d give up lifetimes for yr smile
oh god but there’s no fucking time
like an endless summer
i’ll break yr heart
tell me if it’s over, tell me now,
tell me if i can’t go back to how
i’d love you til you’d take me out
growing up in our home colours, yeah
i just wanna be always halfway there
i’d keep it alive now, but you wouldn’t, no
we’re all dressed up in our home colours, yeah
i just wanna, i just wanna be halfway there
i’d keep it alive now, but you wouldn’t, no
take me out to see the sunrise
i just wanna be on yr mind
i just wanna keep it alive
take me out to see the sunrise
i just wanna be on yr mind
you’re everything i’ve been missing all this time
growing up in our home colours, yeah
i just wanna, i just wanna be only halfway there
i’d keep it alive now, but you would
we’re all dressed up in our home colours, yeah
i just wanna, i just wanna be halfway there
i’d keep it alive now
but you wouldn’t no
angels pt. ii (love theme)
there was an angel in my bedroom
pressing flowers & drinking wine
they pulled me over sunday morning
just cause i looked so fucking high
& if i ever saw your face
coming back to me again
i’d make my plans just to erase
everything we had instead
i wanted this to make me change
but i was lost out in the blue
i looked drunk, yeah i looked dazed
but i was just thinking of you
there was an angel in my bedroom
& she was fair, & she was true
but i had a feeling that she might never
get to meet you
& if that angel couldn’t love me
well then i might just write a love theme
& if i ever saw your face
coming back to me again
i’d make my plans just to erase
everything we had instead
your love was sweeter in the spring
but i liked you better in the fall
making out & breaking in
i just want what i had before
in your bed i swear i felt the earth turn
like we were floating round in space
& i’ll feel better in the morning
when the angels see my face
nil sine labore
we’re crashing through the gates of yr school
they’re making out like they’re so cool
& we’ll go running through the tides
i just wanna be on yr side
we’ll park yr car by the beach
(let’s run away sometime)
& we’ll go walking through the streets
(we’ll leave forever)
everything on my mind will be sweet
(sweet forever)
how it feels to be seventeen
the days are longer now we’re here
(it’s like there’s seaspray in yr eyes)
something in the air makes me feel
(& all the salt upon our skin)
like everything will be okay
(a million oceans deep inside)
you’ll find us out in the waves
we’ll park yr car by the beach
(let’s run away sometime)
& we’ll go walking through the streets
we’re crashing through the gates of yr school
(i wish i could)
they’re making out like they’re so cool
(keep on living this way)
& we’ll go running through the tides
(a million summers by yr side)
i just wanna be on yr mind
we’ll skate the road to the beach
(i don’t ever wanna leave)
& chase the sky to its eve
(can we stay here forever?)
everything on my mind will be sweet
(sweet forever)
how much longer can it be
(this way?)
new year's eve - vanilla migraine
yr name
on nights like these we’re beautiful
with eyes like yours i’m falling in love
if this isn’t real i don’t give a fuck
stars in my head, not thinking straight
i don’t ever wanna forget yr face
what did you say, what did you say?
we will never be
what we found tonight
it’s like forever in a way (, yeah)
let’s turn this around,
make it all sweet & painless
what did you say,
what did you say yr name was?
take me out onto the street
& all yr words just sound like dreams
drunk enough now to believe
i won’t feel again how i feel now
you said it before but i’ll hear you out
i’ll keep dancing to the sound
of this love as it takes me down
there’s a silent smile in yr eyes
it’s burning you out inside
& we’ll get a little high
off everyone you shy
away from, tonight
what did you say yr name was?
i will be there at the end,
just hold my hand
what did you say,
what did you say yr name was?
what did you say,
what did you say yr name was?
we will never be
what we found tonight
it’s like forever in a way (, yeah)
let’s turn this around,
make it all sweet & painless
what did you say,
what did you say yr name was?
(what did you say, what did you say,
what did you say, what did you say)
for the lovers
i think this might just be our night
eighteen and running out of time
you told me that you didn’t mind
if this year’s the rest of our lives
(never gonna see you again, oh & i’m never gonna see you again,
never gonna see you again, oh & i’m never gonna see you again)
why don’t we go on back sometime
& just make out like we’re in love
when we’re swinging on the skyline
touching down & taking off
& if we never get better
we’ll just keep taking in this weather
it took miracles just to get me by
& as we fell i heard you cry
one for the lovers
oh for the lovers
one for the lovers
oh for the lovers
i wish that i could stay
would you still feel the same
i know there’s no other way
‘one for the lovers’ – it’s in yr hands
electric
i’m electric
keep me restless
interested
until they arrest us
i’m electric
keep me guessing
you’re the best, the
one that i’m obsessed with
i’m electric
beat me senseless
interested
until they arrest us
i’m electric
keep me guessing
you’re the best, &
i don’t wanna miss this
palm bleach
take me out to see the sunrise
i just wanna be on yr mind
get a better view for the first time
i just wanna be on yr mind
she left you crying in the bathroom stall
for a retro baby in the dancing hall
voices screaming it’ll be yr fault
but i don’t wanna wait til i feel that fall
took a risk with you out on the floor
“it’s called techno, baby, have you heard it before?”
you’re spitting bliss just cause you’re so bored
& she can’t wait to see you fall
you’re pretty in the dark
i’m drunk & dreaming of
a light beneath the palms
when you fall in love
all these neon sparks
are messing with yr head
let her break yr heart
before you break yrself
she left you crying in the bathroom stall
for a retro baby in the dancing hall
voices screaming it’ll be yr fault
but i don’t wanna wait til i feel that fall
took a risk with you out on the floor
“it’s called techno, baby, have you heard it before?”
you’re slitting wrists just cause you’re so bored
& she can’t wait to see you fall
it’s coming ‘round again
you’ve seen it all before
& just like all yr friends
she’s dying to be yours
on yr tv screen
all this wasted time
don’t care what i believe
there’s too much on my mind
online
inside yr mind, inside yr mind
inside yr bedroom all the time
you make me wonder, you’re so lovely
i don’t know and i don’t mind
you took yr chance
i made it mine
you took my hand
we danced all night
i wanna be
inside yr mind
& it’s so sweet
when you’re online
at the same time
as me -
forever,
i’ll be
online
you say you won’t, but you will
in the morning when we wake up
i will be in my room
waiting for you
you took yr chance
i made it mine
you looked so
we danced all night
i wanna be
inside yr mind
& it’s so sweet
baby trust me
it’s all over now
but it’s fine
you’re online
at the same time
as me -
forever,
i’ll be
online
you say you won’t, but you will
in the morning when we wake up
i will be in my room
waiting for you
the vanilla migraine collection - court of love pt. i
sullivan’s diner
‘06, love was in yr eyes
sent a message into the night
always living in dreams of the sunrise
oh, oh
it’s all alight but you’re not to blame
i’ll look away as you hit the pavement
love in yr eyes & fucked in the head
ascend to heaven in sullivan’s diner
too close, got lost in the fire
left behind & all out of time
kept yr heart locked up like a zip file
oh, oh
it’s all alight but you’re not afraid
i’ll look away as you hit the pavement
love in yr eyes & fucked in the head
ascend to heaven in sullivan’s diner
saturday night
keep ‘em coming, baby,
i’ll be there soon, i will be there saturday night
i’ll keep ‘em coming, baby, i’ll be –
held her hand under picnic tables
& when we kissed, yeah she tasted like gasoline
wrote my number in pen on her forearm
& i waited out here but she never got back to me
we were drifting through the armagard
& i can’t help thinking that i saw my reflection
in the lights shining down from the stars
& i can’t help thinking of a new direction, now
keep ‘em coming, baby,
i’ll be there soon, i will be there saturday night
i’ll keep ‘em coming, baby, i’ll be –
the walls were red & yr eyes were blue
you were just telling me all of yr fantasies
in the wreckage of a broken heart
everything you are, yeah you live for the memories
held yr hand under picnic tables
& when we kissed, yeah you tasted like gasoline
wrote my number out in pen on yr forearm
& i waited out here but you never got back to me
keep ‘em coming, baby,
i’ll be there soon, i will be there saturday night
i’ll keep ‘em coming, baby, i’ll be –
sugarwater
drowning me in sugarwater,
it’s okay, yeah i think you ought to
kill me now before i die
it’s okay, it’s all alright
hell
waking up in the night
like i know why
i keep believing in lies to get me by
throwing up & getting down
down in the deep & swimming around
i wanna be whatever’s in vogue
you know, oh
i’ll be living in hell, i’ll be living in hell
i’ll be living in hell, hell
it’s all adding up, & it’s getting me down
i’m feeling like you don’t need me around
if it’s all a dream, you can’t miss the show
you know, oh
i’ll be living in hell
yr apartment
we got drunk in yr apartment
& someday we’ll find out why
every corner of the apartment
sun-bathed in black & white
oh baby child
give in to me now
oh we’re dancing in dreams now
you’re here
we’ll catch the train in the morning
let the memories of you go
keep you alive
to keep you alive tonight
in every corner of
the apartment
love love love love love love love love
we got drunk in your apartment
maybe someday we’ll find out why
goodbye werona
it took seventeen years to find you a doctor
who could tell you what you needed to hear
it’s not depression, it’s ptsd,
& your filing cabinet is broken
sick on the floor of my cousins’ pool
in the depths of the heat of the summer
i’m pretty sure we were never built to see
pictures of ourselves in old memories
& goodbye werona, it’s the end of an era
i’m not sure i’ll miss you at all
goodbye werona, it’s the end of an era
i’m not sure i’ll miss you at all
everything was fine, yeah everything was cool
watching from the eye of the hailstorm
i was scared of your father,
but you were only scared of your dreams
i never met your mother but in your kitchen i wrote stories
about who i thought that she used to be
& in all my life i’ve never seen a place so beautiful
as the two-storey house at the end of the street
& goodbye werona
it’s the end of an era
i’m not sure i’ll miss you at all
we burned all the photos
it’s the end of an era
i’m not sure that i’ll miss at all
(love me) (don’t leave)
court of love
order in the court of love, baby
hazy in the light of dawn
a memory; of course it was, baby
order in the court of love
serena adrienne - vanilla migraine
reprise
they’re coming for you, baby child
all sparks of scarlet rain
everyone’s in love with you
& soft-drinks & cocaine
burning through september
with tornadoes in yr head
you’re all i ever wanted
& i’m back in love again
sweetness in another hour,
there’ll be only us to blame
let’s go to a dancing hall
where no-one knows our name
lost inside a world of your own
dreams & memories
take me back & tear me out of
every fantasy
018 (demo)
you’re sixteen, of course you’ve
never had a friend like me
we’re sixteen, of course you’ve
never had a friend like me
© 2019 - all poems + lyrics written & owned by charlie h