this stupid dream - heartstop beach

 

home colours

we’re all dressed up in our home colours, yeah

i just wanna, i just wanna be halfway there

i’d keep it alive now,

but you wouldn’t, no

growing up in our home colours, yeah

i just wanna, i just wanna be only halfway there

i’d keep it alive now,

but you wouldn’t, no

 

tell me if it’s over, tell me now,

tell me if i can’t go back to how

i’d love you til you’d take me out

 

adding to yr list of ways to die

i’d give up lifetimes for yr smile

oh god but there’s no fucking time

 

like an endless summer

i’ll break yr heart

 

tell me if it’s over, tell me now,

tell me if i can’t go back to how

i’d love you til you’d take me out

 

growing up in our home colours, yeah

i just wanna be always halfway there

i’d keep it alive now, but you wouldn’t, no

 

we’re all dressed up in our home colours, yeah

i just wanna, i just wanna be halfway there

i’d keep it alive now, but you wouldn’t, no

 

take me out to see the sunrise

i just wanna be on yr mind

i just wanna keep it alive

 

take me out to see the sunrise

i just wanna be on yr mind

you’re everything i’ve been missing all this time

 

growing up in our home colours, yeah

i just wanna, i just wanna be only halfway there

i’d keep it alive now, but you would

we’re all dressed up in our home colours, yeah

i just wanna, i just wanna be halfway there

i’d keep it alive now

but you wouldn’t no

 

 

angels pt. ii (love theme)

there was an angel in my bedroom

pressing flowers & drinking wine

they pulled me over sunday morning

just cause i looked so fucking high

 

& if i ever saw your face

coming back to me again

i’d make my plans just to erase

everything we had instead

i wanted this to make me change

but i was lost out in the blue

i looked drunk, yeah i looked dazed

but i was just thinking of you

 

there was an angel in my bedroom

& she was fair, & she was true

but i had a feeling that she might never

get to meet you

& if that angel couldn’t love me

well then i might just write a love theme

 

& if i ever saw your face

coming back to me again

i’d make my plans just to erase

everything we had instead

your love was sweeter in the spring

but i liked you better in the fall

making out & breaking in

i just want what i had before

 

in your bed i swear i felt the earth turn

like we were floating round in space

& i’ll feel better in the morning

when the angels see my face

 

 

nil sine labore

we’re crashing through the gates of yr school

they’re making out like they’re so cool

& we’ll go running through the tides

i just wanna be on yr side

 

we’ll park yr car by the beach

(let’s run away sometime)

& we’ll go walking through the streets

(we’ll leave forever)

everything on my mind will be sweet

(sweet forever)

how it feels to be seventeen

 

the days are longer now we’re here

(it’s like there’s seaspray in yr eyes)

something in the air makes me feel

(& all the salt upon our skin)

like everything will be okay

(a million oceans deep inside)

you’ll find us out in the waves

 

we’ll park yr car by the beach

(let’s run away sometime)

& we’ll go walking through the streets

 

we’re crashing through the gates of yr school

(i wish i could)

they’re making out like they’re so cool

(keep on living this way)

& we’ll go running through the tides

(a million summers by yr side)

i just wanna be on yr mind

 

we’ll skate the road to the beach

(i don’t ever wanna leave)

& chase the sky to its eve

(can we stay here forever?)

everything on my mind will be sweet

(sweet forever)

how much longer can it be

(this way?)

 

 

new year's eve - vanilla migraine

 

yr name

on nights like these we’re beautiful

with eyes like yours i’m falling in love

if this isn’t real i don’t give a fuck

 

stars in my head, not thinking straight

i don’t ever wanna forget yr face

what did you say, what did you say?

 

we will never be

what we found tonight

it’s like forever in a way (, yeah)

let’s turn this around,

make it all sweet & painless

what did you say,

what did you say yr name was?

 

take me out onto the street

& all yr words just sound like dreams

drunk enough now to believe

 

i won’t feel again how i feel now

you said it before but i’ll hear you out

i’ll keep dancing to the sound

of this love as it takes me down

 

there’s a silent smile in yr eyes

it’s burning you out inside

& we’ll get a little high

off everyone you shy

away from, tonight

what did you say yr name was?

i will be there at the end,

just hold my hand

 

what did you say,

what did you say yr name was?

what did you say,

what did you say yr name was?

 

we will never be

what we found tonight

it’s like forever in a way (, yeah)

let’s turn this around,

make it all sweet & painless

what did you say,

what did you say yr name was?

 

 (what did you say, what did you say,

what did you say, what did you say)

 

 

for the lovers

i think this might just be our night

eighteen and running out of time

you told me that you didn’t mind

if this year’s the rest of our lives

 

 (never gonna see you again, oh & i’m never gonna see you again,

never gonna see you again, oh & i’m never gonna see you again)

 

why don’t we go on back sometime

& just make out like we’re in love

when we’re swinging on the skyline

touching down & taking off

& if we never get better

we’ll just keep taking in this weather

it took miracles just to get me by

& as we fell i heard you cry

 

one for the lovers

oh for the lovers

one for the lovers

oh for the lovers

 

i wish that i could stay

would you still feel the same

i know there’s no other way

‘one for the lovers’ – it’s in yr hands

 

 

electric

i’m electric

keep me restless

interested

until they arrest us

 

i’m electric

keep me guessing

you’re the best, the

one that i’m obsessed with

 

i’m electric

beat me senseless

interested

until they arrest us

                             

i’m electric

keep me guessing

you’re the best, &

i don’t wanna miss this

 

 

palm bleach

take me out to see the sunrise

i just wanna be on yr mind

get a better view for the first time

i just wanna be on yr mind

 

she left you crying in the bathroom stall

for a retro baby in the dancing hall

voices screaming it’ll be yr fault

but i don’t wanna wait til i feel that fall

 

took a risk with you out on the floor

“it’s called techno, baby, have you heard it before?”

you’re spitting bliss just cause you’re so bored

& she can’t wait to see you fall

 

you’re pretty in the dark

i’m drunk & dreaming of

a light beneath the palms

when you fall in love

 

all these neon sparks

are messing with yr head

let her break yr heart

before you break yrself

 

she left you crying in the bathroom stall

for a retro baby in the dancing hall

voices screaming it’ll be yr fault

but i don’t wanna wait til i feel that fall

 

took a risk with you out on the floor

“it’s called techno, baby, have you heard it before?”

you’re slitting wrists just cause you’re so bored

& she can’t wait to see you fall

 

it’s coming ‘round again

you’ve seen it all before

& just like all yr friends

she’s dying to be yours

 

on yr tv screen

all this wasted time

don’t care what i believe

there’s too much on my mind

 

 

online

inside yr mind, inside yr mind

inside yr bedroom all the time

you make me wonder, you’re so lovely

i don’t know and i don’t mind

 

you took yr chance

i made it mine

you took my hand

we danced all night

i wanna be

inside yr mind

& it’s so sweet

when you’re online

 

at the same time

as me -

forever,

i’ll be

online

 

you say you won’t, but you will

in the morning when we wake up

i will be in my room

waiting for you

 

you took yr chance

i made it mine

you looked so

we danced all night

i wanna be

inside yr mind

& it’s so sweet

 

baby trust me

it’s all over now

but it’s fine

you’re online

 

at the same time

as me -

forever,

i’ll be

online

 

you say you won’t, but you will

in the morning when we wake up

i will be in my room

waiting for you

 

 

the vanilla migraine collection - court of love pt. i

 

sullivan’s diner

‘06, love was in yr eyes

sent a message into the night

always living in dreams of the sunrise

oh, oh

 

it’s all alight but you’re not to blame

i’ll look away as you hit the pavement

love in yr eyes & fucked in the head

ascend to heaven in sullivan’s diner

 

too close, got lost in the fire

left behind & all out of time

kept yr heart locked up like a zip file

oh, oh

 

it’s all alight but you’re not afraid

i’ll look away as you hit the pavement

love in yr eyes & fucked in the head

ascend to heaven in sullivan’s diner

 

 

saturday night

keep ‘em coming, baby,

i’ll be there soon, i will be there saturday night

i’ll keep ‘em coming, baby, i’ll be –

 

held her hand under picnic tables

& when we kissed, yeah she tasted like gasoline

wrote my number in pen on her forearm

& i waited out here but she never got back to me

 

we were drifting through the armagard

& i can’t help thinking that i saw my reflection

in the lights shining down from the stars

& i can’t help thinking of a new direction, now

 

keep ‘em coming, baby,

i’ll be there soon, i will be there saturday night

i’ll keep ‘em coming, baby, i’ll be –

 

the walls were red & yr eyes were blue

you were just telling me all of yr fantasies

in the wreckage of a broken heart

everything you are, yeah you live for the memories

 

held yr hand under picnic tables

& when we kissed, yeah you tasted like gasoline

wrote my number out in pen on yr forearm

& i waited out here but you never got back to me

 

keep ‘em coming, baby,

i’ll be there soon, i will be there saturday night

i’ll keep ‘em coming, baby, i’ll be –

 

 

sugarwater

drowning me in sugarwater,

it’s okay, yeah i think you ought to

kill me now before i die

it’s okay, it’s all alright

 

 

hell

waking up in the night

like i know why

i keep believing in lies to get me by

 

throwing up & getting down

down in the deep & swimming around

i wanna be whatever’s in vogue

you know, oh

 

i’ll be living in hell, i’ll be living in hell

i’ll be living in hell, hell

 

it’s all adding up, & it’s getting me down

i’m feeling like you don’t need me around

if it’s all a dream, you can’t miss the show

you know, oh

 

i’ll be living in hell

 

 

yr apartment

we got drunk in yr apartment

& someday we’ll find out why

every corner of the apartment

sun-bathed in black & white

 

oh baby child

give in to me now

oh we’re dancing in dreams now

you’re here

 

we’ll catch the train in the morning

let the memories of you go

keep you alive

to keep you alive tonight

in every corner of

the apartment

 

love love love love love love love love

 

we got drunk in your apartment

maybe someday we’ll find out why

 

 

goodbye werona

it took seventeen years to find you a doctor

who could tell you what you needed to hear

it’s not depression, it’s ptsd,

& your filing cabinet is broken

sick on the floor of my cousins’ pool

in the depths of the heat of the summer

i’m pretty sure we were never built to see

pictures of ourselves in old memories

 

& goodbye werona, it’s the end of an era

i’m not sure i’ll miss you at all

goodbye werona, it’s the end of an era

i’m not sure i’ll miss you at all

 

everything was fine, yeah everything was cool

watching from the eye of the hailstorm

i was scared of your father,

but you were only scared of your dreams

i never met your mother but in your kitchen i wrote stories

about who i thought that she used to be

& in all my life i’ve never seen a place so beautiful

as the two-storey house at the end of the street

 

& goodbye werona

it’s the end of an era

i’m not sure i’ll miss you at all

we burned all the photos

it’s the end of an era

i’m not sure that i’ll miss at all

(love me) (don’t leave)

 

 

court of love

order in the court of love, baby

hazy in the light of dawn

a memory; of course it was, baby

order in the court of love

 

 

serena adrienne - vanilla migraine

 

reprise

they’re coming for you, baby child

all sparks of scarlet rain

everyone’s in love with you

& soft-drinks & cocaine

 

burning through september

with tornadoes in yr head

you’re all i ever wanted

& i’m back in love again

 

sweetness in another hour,

there’ll be only us to blame

let’s go to a dancing hall

where no-one knows our name

 

lost inside a world of your own

dreams & memories

take me back & tear me out of

every fantasy

 

 

018 (demo)

you’re sixteen, of course you’ve

never had a friend like me

we’re sixteen, of course you’ve

never had a friend like me

 

 

© 2019 - all poems + lyrics written & owned by charlie h